You know I think it's kind of a shame that I haven't written anything public in so long. It's a testament to the kind of work I'm doing right now and the way I've been thinking about creativity and all that sort of thing. I feel like I'm in a creative vacuum right now. Although I'm doing some of the best and coolest projects of my career, none of it feels like mine. Work for hire is like that though.
I like the fact that I'm given a lot of room to explore and come up with good solutions, and I think that people are generally pleased with the kind of stuff I get done in my job. But wow, there are so many ideas building up in my mind that I don't even want to begin to think about. Stuff that is ultra-cool but doesn't fit into my job at all. I've devoted my spare time to non-technical stuff for the most part. Learning the guitar, getting back into some music writing, and hopefully doing some singing soon has made me realize that outside of work I don't really want to do more projects. I don't have a workshop of my own anymore, so this somewhat limits the time I spend on my own stuff. The shop at work is available if I need to do little projects after hours, but I rarely feel like going into the office on the weekend. When I'm there I really am in a different high intensity mode which is great from 9-5, but not really the way I want to feel and act at other times. This is the first time in my life where I've had a healthy balance of work and play. It's always been all one or the other in the past.
But you know, I really do want to publish more ideas and share things that are useful. I used to want to do this because I really felt that people deserved better information and good ideas, especially for free. But lately I don't really care if anyone reads my stuff anymore, I just need somewhere to put it. If it does end up being entertaining or insightful to others, then that's great. But it's not really the intention.
Lately I've started to learn that apart from close friends (and it takes a while before I allow people to become close) I don't really care much what other people have to say unless they nearly immediately strike me as someone I can learn from. That's one of the reasons that my site doesn't support comments. You're free to send me email, and I usually respond and try to be polite and helpful, but I've always thought of comments on websites as a way to make your website not your own. Sure it builds online communities and all that, but you know, most people only do that so they can make money from syndicated ads. And you'll notice that this site is completely ad free. That's intentional, and I think it's better that way.
You know, I was headed off on a tangent about selfishness, the meaning of life, and a bunch of other heavy topics, but I don't really think that this article needs it. I really just needed to write something new. Thanks for reading! And keep an eye here for new stuff any day now.
Off Camera:
AK: Oh man that sucked donkey balls!
CM: Don't worry about it man, people don't really care, as long as their TV lights up and makes pretty colours.
AK: Yeah, I guess so. Hope the next one is better though.
CM: It will be, I promise.
